Fearing Answers

Despite being targeted by people who enjoy hurting the innocent, I began coping and ignoring it. Things were going great. I've been so happy. I had my amazing children and I had my sweet boyfriend. But the past three days Ive been thrown into a vicious twister of pain, doubts, fears and countless years. The worst part of it is the unknown. I have no clue what's going on and the one person who can clarify everything for me has vanished. I have no idea if they are dead or alive. And the waiting is torturing me to the point where I am physically sick over it. I don't want my fears over what this is to come true. I don't think I can handle it if they do. But the not knowing is prolonging it. I just want answers and because I have my babies, I will have to survive whatever these answers are. I have no other choice.