Things picked back up. Im excited because I have found some jogging partners, went quite a few days without jogging since we had some women that were jumped and raped in the area and I didnt feel safe enough going out even with one of my dogs, since I jog at night. Im trying to be more active and its really helping me feel better overall. Its still tough since He is always around. I swear I cant turn a corner without him lurking and trying to cause trouble. Ever since our last 'conversation' where I repeatedly hammered home the fact I would never take him back, well he has had a few tantrums. Refusing to look at me when picking/dropping off the kids. Makes dissapointed "sounds" and shakes his head. And when we are 'forced' to communicate via text, he usually will say something then immediatly respond saying Im not allowed to talk to him whatsoever, even if it regards the kids. I just ignore it. I feel he is becoming less stable.
The kids are doing well in school and Im hoping the constant schedual will help them even out. Im still debating finding another job, just to fill the hours when the kids are in school but I know there isnt much out there. Even though for the most part things are changing for the better, I still feel like Im about to fall off the edge of something, the bottom is about give out. He is up to something and it doesnt bode well for me. But Im hanging on and hopefully can ride out whatever he throws my way.
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