Flee The State

The other day you would have found me in a panic. I found out he had taken one of the kids out of state, despite our child custody agreement saying we couldnt do that. Before he had done that he had acted strange, being his normal ass self, throwing in what he thinks is charm, coupled with being vague and cruel. I didnt think much of it. Little did I know just hours later he would have my oldest baby across state lines. I found out from my oldest when they came home the night they were supposed to. Outwardly I remained calm, but inward I was panicing. What was his game? What was he up to. Everyone agreed it seemed like a test, how long would it take for me to find out he took off? He and his family have connections to another country. They have been helping get a couple people into the U.S. and been helping one guy who is in prison. Needless to say we freaked out. Began filling out paperwork to make it so I would be alerted if anyone tried to get passports for the kids. Come on. We all know how easy it is to forge documents, to pay people off and work around things. So filing this paperwork doesnt make me feel any better. If anything it brings more fear, because now its real. He and his family are twisted. They honestly believe that he is some sort of messiah. They shared the story of how they learned he was coming, they swear up and down angels came to them, sat down had lunch with them and fortold her upcoming pregnancy. Why the heck didnt I run screaming in the other direction when I realized these guys were coocoo for cocoa puffs?!

I cant afford to have private investigators following him 24/7, just to insure my children are not being whisked out of the country. So every second of every day they are with him I live in fear. Will I get my babies back?! I do know that while I had the kids, he took off and was out of state for a few days. Where? Who knows. But Ive made sure the kids have been spotted at his parents house during his visit the past couple of days. This is crazy. Im at a loss.

To try and keep myself from going off the deep end, Ive been cleaning and organizing the kids rooms. Gonna head to the store and by some wall decals and redecorate and give the kids a nice surprise when they come home. Summer is flying by and pretty soon they will all be back in school. So I need to organize out little vacation trip soon and figure out how to pack three kids, three dogs and me all into the truck, with enough gear to last us an entire weekend. Hopefully we will survive it :-)